So awhile back I posted an invite to ask me anything, and I thought today I’d get around to answering one of the questions I received. So here it goes….
What is one of the things you find most challenging about being a parent?
I think there are many things that I find challenging (yet worthwhile) as a parent. I think being a mother is the hardest job I have ever had, yet by far the most rewarding. But this one thing in particular was really on my mind yesterday, so I will mention it. One of the things that I find most challenging is the feeling of always being behind. There is only so much time in a day, and for me only so much ability to do things, and if I spend a chunk of time doing one thing it feels like 5 other things get behind. You have to really prioritize because for every one thing you choose to do, you are basically choosing to not do five others. I think that is the experience of many mothers, not just those with health issues. But one of the things that I really enjoyed before children and before my accident was the feeling of a long hard days work (at my job and around my home) and being “done” for the day.
I never really feel “done” for the day anymore. And that’s mostly my fault for perceiving it that way, I suppose. I am in many ways the stereotypical type A personality and when that personality is in a body that does less than what they want it to do, it’s pretty easy to end up frustrated. But I do find great satisfaction in “good” days health wise, and whatever I can get accomplished.
For example yesterday I had some energy so I thought I would tackle cleaning out the kid’s closets of shirts & dresses that didn’t fit anymore. I just did this in the spring. But there was a rather large number of shirts that just didn’t fit anymore, for both my son and my daughter. So I tackled that tonight. I was so satisfied during the process. I was at the end of my rope physically by the end. But thrilled to have it done and to make space for their new larger shirts we purchased this week. But as I was finishing that old familiar feeling of gloom set in. The – Darn it! I am out of steam and have this, this, this, this, this and this I still want/need to do – feeling. I hate that feeling. It takes a very conscious effort to remind myself that I need to be thankful for the ability to have done what I have, and tackle the rest as I can.
So that’s my answer – Never feeling like I’m finished for the day. Always wishing I had more time, more energy, and more accomplished for/with my children.
But they are worth every moment. Every frustration. It pales in comparison to the overwhelming love and joy they bring to my life every single day.
At this exact moment, as I type this, my 6-year-old daughter is in the bathtub happily singing “Home on the Range” at the top of her lungs. And I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
If you’d like to share, leave me a comment and let me know one of the things you find challenging as a parent.
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